Pain

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 01:03:33 GMT

You can't understand the pain I face. Haunted by the past tourmented by the future. Every move I breath only but a mistake. I try to move forward but you are always threre to remind me of the things I don't deserve of the life I will never have. Your eyes are too blinded too see the marks I leave my self or maybe I am too small too matter but your words are big enough to cut me into so many little pieces. If I could start over I would be a better little girl and not cause you so much pain but I can't so can't you love me for me and not just my body? I just want a daddy to protect me and a mommy who loves a God who cares. I promise I'll do better just please don't touch me again not in that way don't make me touch you for your love. I'll do anyting to stop the pain. I have cried a million tears and I am dry and can cry no more. Is that what they call numb you should know you made me this way. My anger is locked deep but I have found the key and no longer will I hide from you no longer will I choose to care for you. I want you to know I'll end up hating you because I have seen through your mask, so filled with lies, and I don't love you any more. I am sorry to say I am letting go.

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Tue, 24 Jun 2008 01:23:14 GMT

Well this will be something intersting to explore. Don't know how i feel about online journling but hey I will give it a try. Hope to meet new people here.

barlowgirl7

Pain

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